When we ended 6 years of struggle to conceive a child in February of 2020 I was devastated as well as relieved. But most of all I was paralyzed. It's such a shock to the system to stop after years of poking, prodding and failing, and I didn't know how to feel. All around me people talked and talked, but no one helped. We were let go and no one was there to catch us. I had to try and make some sort of sense of it, so I did what I do. I wrote a song.
I use music and songs as a way to reflect and bring feelings out, that often gets ’Stuck’ if I don't. I can't hide from it when I sing it out. So it's a reflection, a diary and a way to move forward.
Eva Fog
Paralyzed
Stoned faced
Heartbreak
Sitting here trying to figure it out
Pale faced
Heartache
Sitting here trying to connect with my self
People trying to tell me whats best for me
But thats not me
Stoned faced
Heartbreak
Sitting here trying to figure it out
Pale faced
Heartache
Sitting here trying to connect with my self
People trying to tell me whats best for me
But thats not me
People pushing all of their dreams on me
But thats not me
I’m paralyzed
Baby I’m so paralyzed
I’m paralyzed
Baby I’m so paralyzed
Staight faced
Smile placed
Trying not to let it all out of me
Slow pace
Hearts race
Trying to control whats boiling up in me
People all around me saying its all good
But thats not me
People all around me trying to feed me with lies
But thats not me
I’m paralyzed
Baby I’m so paralyzed
I’m paralyzed
Baby I’m so paralyzed
People trying to tell me whats best for me
But thats not me
People pushing all of their dreams on me
But thats not me
I’m paralyzed
Baby I’m so paralyzed
I’m paralyzed
Baby I’m so paralyzed