Paralyzed

When we ended 6 years of struggle to conceive a child in February of 2020 I was devastated as well as relieved. But most of all I was paralyzed. It's such a shock to the system to stop after years of poking, prodding and failing, and I didn't know how to feel. All around me people talked and talked, but no one helped. We were let go and no one was there to catch us. I had to try and make some sort of sense of it, so I did what I do. I wrote a song.

I use music and songs as a way to reflect and bring feelings out, that often gets ’Stuck’ if I don't. I can't hide from it when I sing it out. So it's a reflection, a diary and a way to move forward.

Eva Fog

Paralyzed

Stoned faced

Heartbreak

Sitting here trying to figure it out

Pale faced

Heartache

Sitting here trying to connect with my self

People trying to tell me whats best for me

But thats not me

Stoned faced

Heartbreak

Sitting here trying to figure it out

Pale faced

Heartache

Sitting here trying to connect with my self

People trying to tell me whats best for me

But thats not me

People pushing all of their dreams on me

But thats not me

I’m paralyzed

Baby I’m so paralyzed

I’m paralyzed

Baby I’m so paralyzed

Staight faced

Smile placed

Trying not to let it all out of me

Slow pace

Hearts race

Trying to control whats boiling up in me

People all around me saying its all good

But thats not me

People all around me trying to feed me with lies

But thats not me

I’m paralyzed

Baby I’m so paralyzed

I’m paralyzed

Baby I’m so paralyzed

People trying to tell me whats best for me

But thats not me

People pushing all of their dreams on me

But thats not me

I’m paralyzed

Baby I’m so paralyzed

I’m paralyzed

Baby I’m so paralyzed