Caught in the middle: childfree not by choice

Am I childless? Yes. I tried to have a child and it didn’t work out.

Am I childfree? Yes. I spent most of my life (since I was a child myself) not wanting children. And although I feel a lot of grief at my failed attempts and miscarriage... I can live with this outcome.

But it’s uncomfortable. Like having to wear an old, worn out pair of shoes. They fit. They are mine. But I don’t quite belong in them anymore.

So what’s the word for me? Childfress? Childfree not by choice?

Actually, that feels right. That fits.

That’s my new pair of shoes.

Anon.