When being God-fearing individuals made us aim to live a "clean life" of not engaging in pre-marital sex and both keeping our virginity for marriage.
But then filled with regret when hysterectomy was needed just seven months into marriage.
With the loss to bear our own child, my husband found intimacy meaningless. We remain married with open communication, but losing and finding my self-worth and confidence again and again.
I am constantly questioning what God's plan is for us.
When the church is constantly focused on procreation, it is a lonely place to seek support. The communities for married couples and family life being all about kids.
When the gift of life is regarded as a blessing, are those childless then not blessed?
When childless Christian couples are seen as selfish and questioned why not adopt.
I wonder what the church's stand on IVF is since it is not natural conception, but it is for procreation.
I am constantly in a battle within.
I love my faith in Christ.
But confused with the religion, the Christianity doctrines. On how there seems to be no place to belong despite being faithful.
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