NT

For almost 15 years I felt like I was drowning.

I felt completely out of control. I was being triggered constantly by anything baby or family related. I thought I was a horrible person for not being able to celebrate or just be present for these parts of others’ lives. I was filled withshame and fear. I had no idea I was grieving or carrying trauma.

5 years ago, I started to find answers, language, tools and support. I can’t imagine a time when I don’t carry pain over not having children, but now I know how to care for myself and hold myself with compassion and tenderness.