You said it wouldn’t be easy
And made me believe you loved me
Read moreThe Embracing Space Experiment
What does a childless, single woman do in August?
Read moreChildless and Single In The Teaching World
I am a 50 year-old teacher in a medium sized school. I have never received flowers or congratulations of any form from my colleagues ever.
Read moreA hidden pain, a hidden shame. Perhaps through sharing, I’ll find my name
Carpe diem
Don’t ask “why no children”, it’s too late, it’s too soon.
Some dreams turn to dust, when the blood leaves your womb
Read moreA Sad Story, Not A Sad Life
From a young age, I always knew I wanted to be a mum.
Read moreCompost
com·post / käm-pōst/ noun - • decayed organic material returned to the earth as nourishment.
Read moreAcknowledgement Letter From Mom
I felt like I wanted a letter from my narcissistic mother, in which she acknowledged what she did. So I wrote this.
Read moreSometimes
Sometimes I feel happy,
Sometimes I feel sad,
A tiny pair of trainers - unworn
I hold them in the palm of one hand. A tiny pair of blue denim trainers with neat Velcro straps and white trim.
Read moreI wonder...
When my twin niece and nephew were born, I was overjoyed to become an aunty and full of longing to become a mother.
Read moreMy Maternal Monster
At 24, married and desperately wanting children, my husband and I were told at the IVF client, “Don’t waste our time”!
Read moreCup of Life
This is a painting I made over 20 years ago. I had taken a few months of work to undergo IVF. I started painting as a form of therapy.
Read moreAnswers, reason and meaning
It all started well when we pregnant but suddenly, our of nowhere,it felt like each brick from our wall was falling and we were told our precious baby had died and everything stopped.
Read moreNightmare on Childless Not by Choice Street
I am in the last year of my 30s.
Read moreShe is poetry
Motherhood Without Measure
“I love your necklace. It’s so pretty.”
Read moreI Picked Names
Names I would have whispered at bedtime.
Read moreAzora
She smiles at me,
Read moreI never saw two pink lines
I had always pictured myself being a mom. I had a note file in my phone of baby names.
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