GW

It's not so long in the past where everything seemed acutely painful, but I'd still smile, be kind with responses and engage in the motherly talks, listen to every moment of your special thoughts of little ones and I'd say how lovely that is, what a proud auntie or God-parent I am and I meant it heart and soul.

I've grown since then, and can do all that still, but without the acute pain or exhausted emotion after the event... Or so I thought.

A blast back to the past. A new job, kind hearted, lovely new team members, supportive and present and sharing their life events and hopes for the future. I am smiling, I am engaging but feel numb and fatigued. Another day all about your beautiful children, how hard it is, how tiring it is, off for summer holidays or child care concerns. Another trying to fit in.

Never seems that caring for my elderly family members who never got to be grandparents is the same kind of tired.

I will be OK, I've been through this before. Today wasn't a bad day compared to years before, I just became emotionally drained. Time to rest, recharge, bounce back xx