Did I Subconsciously Choose to Remain Childless?


Katherine Baldwin


I am childless by circumstance, not my choice, but my story is complicated. My circumstances include:

  • Dysfunctional relationship patterns that meant I didn't find healthy love until my early 40s or marry until I was 48

  • Falling in love with a man who didn't want children

  • Ambivalence about motherhood because of my own upbringing - watching my mother struggle with two children on her own

  • Fear about motherhood due to attachments wounds from my early childhood

  • Perhaps a subconscious choice to scupper my chances of having children because I craved freedom and shunned responsibility