Unprepared, guard down, familiar social space, low ebb after long day
I’d stopped. The life train kept going, my limp body in tow.
Healing eluded its own arrival
Landed, cues missed, unprepared.
Kids invaded our social space
Screams, goats, cows, wagons of delight
Chatting with familiar faces
The uber mummies expanded, filled the spaces
You know the ones,
Searching phones for kids stuff mid convo with you
Avoided then wandered outside
The fire, one familiar face, one new
She turned exhausted
I was beyond her conceptual reach
“Do you have children?”
The question dreaded by my kind
Rarely asked, not freshly practiced
“No” and left it at that
“Oh aren’t you lucky!”
I sighed. The conversation died.
12 children, lost, ignored
You could get there
A surface dweller
Cast her line deep
Profound sadness
Reeled in
Marvelled
Reaching midlife
Untouched
By the complexity of life
Took my leave
My sadness in tow
Wrapped on a winter’s couch
Sadness descended
Knocked sideways
The pain
Thought long gone
Merely dormant
Lingered for days.
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