Eight years ago, I was slowly beginning to realize that my wish for a family and children would not come true anymore.
Read moreBetween Childfree and Childless
Those of us without children know that the difference between being childless not by choice, or childfree – choosing not to have children – is not a bright, clear line.
Read moreMy Story that lead me to challenge my future
Dear God,
I am writing this letter to kindly ask for your forgiveness.
Childless Emotional Seasons: My Journey Through Grief towards Renewal
I find the concept of emotional (or inner) seasons meaningful. As a metaphor, they gently remind me that both the good and the bad naturally ebb and flow, so even in the darkest of winters, spring will eventually come.
Read moreStings
One early morning, years ago, I joined a line of women waiting to have a blood test at a fertility clinic.
Read moreWhat not to say to someone who is childless
Why don’t you have kids?
That is an extremely personal question and it’s none of your business.
Read moreZoe Violet
I have been many things at Birmingham airport. Pissed and reflective. Sad and angry. Suicidal and redemptive.
Read moreSolo by the Seashore
The Aunt Who Is Yours
I want to tell you about my aunt Ellen. She never had a child, never planned to.
Read moreAdoption is not an option
I’m playing a fun word-based game with some friends and we’re having an amazing time.
Read moreThere's Nothing Under the Table
We just wanted our cheat meal.
Read moreA Minor Incident on The Beach
The context: Beach off the coast of north-east England, where I swim in the sea regularly. A jolly little group: mostly older women, and some particular men.
Read moreSheffield to Tyneside via Spain
Note: this is a summary version of a monologue that will at some point be performed on stage. Meanwhile, I’ve surprised myself by being able to abbreviate it!
Read moreDisenfranchised - The judgemental gaze
I created this highly emotive personal grief piece using oil pastels on sugar paper in one long two-day sleepless session, at the peak of menstrual hormonal distress.
Read moreMy Story
For me December 2009 turning 30 was a big thing, not sure why but it was a milestone I did not want to achieve, so to get through this, I needed to live my life, the only way I knew how..
Read moreYOUR child, MY child, EVERYONE's child
As an Australian photographer my current and ongoing project is a very silent and personal journey into grief/loss for a child that never happened..
Read moreWhales
Becoming Childless in Twenty Words
I've realised that the story of my childlessness began way before I was aware of what had happened.
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