This is the story of how my identity as a woman has been shaped by four “phews” and a “yech”.
Read moreThe path less travelled
I’m the middle of 3 children. I was the shy, sensitive child, the caring one, the one seen as a ‘natural mother’. Never once did I question that I would get married and have children. My life had other plans.
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My story…..a childless woman….
I was 42 years old, drinking alcohol to excess regularly, depressed and felt like my life was meaningless. I had not yet contemplated taking my own life but it was only matter of time.
Read moreA nameless grief
Sometime tsunami that drowns me
rises up to choke my heart
from fathomless depths.
Hope, Out Of Reach
I painted this watercolour painting to express emotions around reaching the end of our journey through failed fertility treatment, which can be so hard to put into words.
Read moreThis Deep Loss
Until I found available resources, the silence around involuntary childlessness was, for me, one of the most difficult parts of living this experience.
Read moreHe Says
He says get over it
Move on
You can’t stay stuck here
Don’t email if you don’t want babies!
I crave black and white thinking. I presume that plain sailing thoughts and decisions make for an easier, more comfortable state of human existence.
Read moreThe Whole Story
When I tell people how I met my husband, they are quick to comment: “Just like in a movie!”
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