Because of my childlessness

I wanted to be a mom from my earliest memories

No Sweet Smelling Roses and Gushy Grins Here

I am Alana and I have been childless for 30 years.

1. Mother- I assumed this would be my title. I wanted to be a stay-at-home mum raising our four children.

I had to search for myself, pick up the shattered pieces of my dream, and recover. It has not been easy and takes strength and years.

I wanted to have a child my whole life. That’s a big grief!

I am a woman

I am the eldest child

I am Canadian, but live in Germany and they call me automatically childess.

I am childless

I am motherless