To whom it may concern, Actually, I know who this concerns. It’s you. Yes, me. I have been given license to express my feelings. I really need to. I’m angry.
Read moreMy Elephant
I have an elephant.
She is enormous and dreadfully heavy.
She sits on my lap and holds me down with weight.
The Appointments
“I’m seeing some things that aren’t good,” she said like you were anything other than absolutely everything perfect and right
Read moreAmbushed
‘Motherhood is the greatest gift,’
You say,
Piercing me
From where you sit on stage,
And I recoil
Read moreHis Five-Year Plan
Dear you, You turned into your mother. You may have looked up to your father, but your father's qualities are in those you choose to hurt by your actions and lies.
Read moreYou can't even...
“You can't even do what a woman is supposed to do and get pregnant.” Being married to a full blown narcissist is not easy, as many of you may know. Luckily, this one is my EX husband. Years of emotional abuse ended with those 14 words.
Read moreDear Medical Professionals…. I am a person
I still have a lot of anger about how I was treated by multiple doctors in the process of trying to conceive. The process was very dehumanizing, not person-centered.
Read moreLetter to Myself
Hi, it’s me,
I know you are asking “Why am I receiving this letter?”
I’m writing to remember who hurt me the most.
Read moreDear Love Who Didn't Stick Around
To the ex who broke up with me because I couldn't have biological kids,
Read moreI Didn’t Deserve That
I guess the desire for a good relationship with you is something I was born with, but I lost any hope I had for that possibility.
Read moreWhy Would I Want to Have a Baby With You?
“Why would I want to have a baby with YOU?” - I’ve forgiven or forgotten many of the things you said and did as our marriage slowly collapsed, but those words are burned into my memory as the most hurtful thing anyone has ever said to me.
Read moreWhy?
Mistaken
Now I understand how
The pain of my childless grief was something you welcomed
The doctor said what?
My great family doctor is on a year-long sabbatical when we conclude that trying to conceive a baby on our own isn’t working and we need medical help, so my husband and I go to see his doctor for a referral to the fertility clinic.
Read moreIt’s time for me to let go
Writing this letter is going to be very therapeutic for me because I’ve never fully dealt with what happened.
Read moreDear Best Friend
Dear Best Friend, I wonder if you remember this moment: It’s two years since I found out I would be permanently childless.
Read moreWe are Wildflowers
We are all different and varied with our childlessness, and we all come together in the wildflower garden.
Read moreAm I a failure?
To Mom, I am writing this letter to you as you haven’t contacted me for more than 8 months, but it is more than that...
Read moreHow Dare
How dare I, Ask to be supported in my suffering;
Share that I am grieving, For children I can never have?
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