In case you don’t want to read the whole thing, let me start with the premise of the year: Two things can be true at the same time.
Read moreWhen Moving On Doesn't Mean Leaving It Behind
For many years, I believed that moving forwards meant becoming a mother.
Read moreChasing Shadows: An Evolution to Finding Me
All around me is darkness. It is so dark that I don’t even know if there is anyone else around me. Is there someone nearby?
Read moreThe Empty Room
My womb, a room to house a priceless gift —
a safe place, a happy space,
full of hope and dreams to come.
Read moreThe Backyard
We bought the house mainly for the backyard. Amidst towering maple, birch and honey locust trees, it was a canvas of open space where I envisioned a big swing set and our young child or children happily running and playing.
Read moreSomething meaningful will come from this
I sat immobilised in my grief, unable to visualise the future that I would face without children of my own. It felt lonely, empty.
Read moreWhat if?
I am here now
Maybe
Where will my uterus go when she is cut out of my body?
Read moreLooking Back to Go Forward
When I was growing up, I loved making things.
Read moreIt was LOVE
A letter to my younger self
Dear Sarah, I know that you’re struggling with childlessness and grief right now so I wanted to say a few words about that.
Read moreSuperhero
Losing the Dream and Finding Me
My husband, James, and I had to put our 16-year-old dog, Leela, to sleep last month.
Read moreI Stopped Waiting for My Real Life to Begin
My first step towards moving forward came in January of 2024 when I had my hysterectomy.
Read moreMy View
On this path..
When Plan B Doesn't Ripen
I was gifted a tomato plant by a kind stranger, and I was really excited. I’d always dreamed of growing my own tomatoes.
Read moreThe Simple Question nobody thinks about, UNLESS It affects You
“Do you have children?”
And it is not just the no.
It is the loaded everything that sits behind it…..
Read moreSit in the Fire
This quote was a companion to me when I was coming out of the grief from childlessness.
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