It was the end of 2015 and my now-hubby and I had just bought our dream house in regional NSW.
Read moreChildlessness (at this point)
It’s been almost 8 years since my only pregnancy and miscarriage,
Five years of fertility treatments, and
many embryos that did not grow in my body.
So many sad months of getting my period.
So much grief.
Finding my Superpower
Until the moment I met my husband I was child-free. In that I knew I wanted children some day, but had never yet met anyone I wanted to have them with.
Read moreMy Story Grows With Me
My story is almost two decades old now. It has been over 20 years since I began trying to conceive. Over 20 years since I first realised that it was not happening.
Read moreLove Remains
Transfigured Life
In the depths of my childless grief I felt forgotten.
Read morePeace in her Smile
Peace in her Smile
Her smell.
The touch of her soft skin on mine.
The sound of her gentle breath.
The wonder in her tiny form.
Life Is a Feeling Experience: Sadness Moves Us Toward What is to be Gained
I sat as calmly as I could this week while Esther, the acupuncturist, held my wrists palms up and felt my pulse. Her pulse check came after inspecting my tongue and my eyes.
Read moreThe Lies we Tell
The reason for this is to highlight to others what NOT TO SAY.
Read moreLiving Plan B(est)
10th April 2012, my husband and I had just failed our 4th and final attempt at IVF.
Read moreHeart lines, Structured, Unscripted
My child’s name lays on my lap.
What I thought I knew.
My life has slipped through my fingers.
Read moreSitting with my tears
Sitting with my tears
I recognise the etched feeling in my heart
Yes, it is grief
Timing timing
Why has it taken so long… perhaps it hasn’t as the small steps have constantly evolved but I am now at a point where I am looking back at the long road behind me.
Read moreThe Director
Mine is a childless-not-by-choice story. A year ago, at age 39, I was finally diagnosed with Endometriosis.
Read moreLiving the life - plan B
I never thought that I would be sat here writing this, but I am happy.
Read moreCan We really Move Forward* from Childlessness?
Is that really possible? If we ‘move on’ from our grief of childlessness, does that mean that we didn’t
want children badly enough?
Emergence
There were truth seekers and speakers,
hysterectomy and cancer conquerors
and many who finally felt seen.
Read moreSimply Single the Best
Hope is crying because of lost dreams
Read moreGrief
I move forward, always slightly uphill on rocky terrain, carrying my experience and treasuring the contents of my baggage.
Read moreThe Top Twenty-One Positives of being Childless Not By Choice in 2021
A poll was carried out in Childless Perks!! to discover our favoutite Perks for 2021.
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