This poem I wrote the time when things started to click that I could create a new life, one that wasn't dictate to by society, but one of my very own.
Read moreMoment Of Realisation
Walking in the nature really helped us literally move forward…
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The Letting Go
A Letting Go Ceremony
A few years ago, I carried out a private ceremony to mark the loss of my unconceived children.
Read moreSocial Exposure
Like many experiencing confinement at home, there have been a few emotional struggles. Anxiety brought on by not knowing what lays ahead.
Read moreFrom limitations to possibilities, and from choices, to hope…
‘There’s more to life than just getting married and having kids, Yvonne’, said my confident, beautiful, perfectly organised blonde P.E. teacher, during a return visit to my old school with other friends from my year.
Read moreUntangling This Complicated Life
When did I start to know I had started to move forwards? Was it when I gave away the baby clothing I bought on our first IVF cycle?
Read moreFinding the Treasure Chest
I am always very keen to move forward. So keen that I would happily put the pain in a box, label it “dangerous/don’t open” and lock it up the attic for ever.
Read moreLetting Go
One afternoon a few years ago, after a searing romantic disappointment, I sat at the piano and, unexpectedly, poured out all my feelings into a song.
Read moreA Pivotal Turning Point
We both remember that moment vividly, the exact moment when we decided to stop fertility treatments and embrace life as a complete family of two (and pets!).
Read moreMoving Onwards and Upwards
I submitted a story last year as we were right in the middle of lockdown. It was like therapy for me submitting our story, it really brought home what we had been through and survived!
Read moreOut Of The Tunnel
I never foresaw that I would be childless. Never imagined that I could not only survive this but thrive.
Read moreThe Weight of Being Childless Late in Life
I was never ready to have a child, but I always loitered along the razor’s edge of wanting one. I cast away all my healthy reproductive years to the agony of indecision.
Read moreFor the Witches with Their Spells
In a fairytale world, I would be the witch. Not to be nasty: in fact, I am quite happy. Grey and drizzly outside and I am tucked up by my fire, my cat at my side, her head all warm and comfy on my hip.
Read moreEmerging
Dreams shattered and destroyed
Feelings of loss and loneliness
Not fitting inside society’s box
Permission
Having a hysterectomy felt like, at the time, the permission I needed to start moving forwards, to begin to widen the scope of view on my life.
Read moreMy Journey
My name is Kerry, I am 45 and childless not by choice and circumstances.
Read moreOne step forward…
It sounds so mature – I’ve accepted my unexplained infertility, embraced my childless state, and am moving on into a new and wonderful future full of joy and endless amazing opportunities.
Read moreHeartbeats and Wishes
As I struggle to find the words to express my journey, I decided to use textiles.
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