I wrote this song when I was feeling the opportunities to have a child slipping through my fingers, and also pondering the existential question of whether my life without children would be equal to another version of my life as a mother.
Read moreChildless and Yet Professionally Very Child-Full
I’m a childless therapist and since a portion of my work is play therapy, I can’t count the times someone has said “At least you work with children!” as if that makes it easier.
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There is a deep well at the end of my garden
It is full of sadness
I don’t go down to it very often nowadays
Not least because at the bottom it is full of babies
Read moreMy Worthiness as a Childless Woman
The room was thrumming with women in power outfits; hundreds of made-up faces that I didn’t know. I was there to feel empowered and to connect with other women. Yet as I entered that room, I felt a million miles from empowered.
Read moreFor the Longest Time
During the beginning of the pandemic in 2020, when I kept seeing photos of all these families doing fun things to try and get through the lockdown, it made me a little sad.
Read moreFundamentally Worthy
A Love Letter to my CNBC and Child-Free Sisters
This year has been one for the books, and many of my CNBC Sisters are hurting, lonely, and questioning the value of their lives – to the edge.
Read more“As a mother…”
As a mother… argh, how many commentaries do we read that start with these words? I see it all the time. I see it all the time because each, and every, time I feel excluded from what comes next in that statement.
Read moreUnforgettable Woman
When all seems lost and the world has seemingly forgotten you…
I see you,
I hear you,
I feel your pain.
Read moreI Want to Bridge The Divide
It might be a surprise
just what it took, to prize
this story from our hearts and into the parts
of our daily lives for you to see us,
Read moreChanging The Worthiness Narrative For Childless People: None of Us is Worthy Until All of Us Are Worthy
When asked whether as a childless woman, I feel worthy, I wondered at first, worthy of what?
Read morePetals
The bud held promise of scarlet blooms, with petals spread to the wind.
Read moreDead Leaves and Blossom
We can’t have children,
No, it’s true,
Another reason to add to my list:
My body isn’t enough,
I am not enough.
Read moreHow The Covid-19 Pandemic Made Me Address The Grief Caused By My Childlessness
My journey of childlessness began in 2013. I got married in 2009 and I simply assumed that the next step was to have children. Little did I know what was ahead!
Read moreThe Gateway
Grief is insisting I bring all of myself and my life, as lived so far, to and through its gateway. Frankly I'm not at all keen. There's far too much I'd rather gloss over, drown out, shake off, put back, lose, forget, disown or reject.
Read moreOne Day I just felt OK
It’s hard to explain the feeling I have now compared to the feeling I had then. It’s actually not that long ago when something just changed.
Read moreWhat do I Want You to Know
I am 47, I don’t have children. I went through a real grief period in my late 30s when I realised that having children just wasn’t going to happen for me.
Read moreHere We Are, Not Alone
Given I no longer feel alone in my childlessness, I really appreciate the growing community around the issue and am submitting this to World Childless Week 2021 which has been key to growing that community. I hope YOU are no longer alone too. There are many of us "out there".
Read moreThe Stick Figure Family that Broke my Heart
I wasn’t sure as a young adult that I would want children, but as the years moved on, I realized that raising a child of our own with my partner was something I was truly longing for.
Read moreThe BBQ
Ever been to a gathering or bbq where the conversation focuses on children?
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