I pulled down my knickers and no longer found her there waiting for me. She was late, very very late.
Read moreThe Empty Nest
In mid-June, a robin built a nest atop an outdoor lamp on my back deck. The nest then sat empty for more than a week.
Read moreThe truth about our challenges - and the gifts that they bring
In 2012 my husband and I agreed it was time to start a family. I was excited.
Read moreLiving a Childless Life: Recognizing Glimmers
You are undoubtedly familiar with the words and concept of 'being triggered.' It refers to a cue or event that precipitates difficult emotions.
Read moreToday I'm moving forward
Truthfully, I never saw myself "moving forward".
I'm failing at finding a 'new dream'.
I'm failing at building a 'different future.'
But here I am moving forward.
Read moreFinding the Words
I started to move on when I stopped crying. I had cried for years. It went on and on. I’d not read any books on the need to grieve. This was the 1980s and I’m not sure such books existed. I just cried.
Read moreThe way forward - I choose my happiness
Comparison is the thief of all joy they say - it’s true. Don’t look back look forward - another good one. Don’t dwell on the past. Look forward you are only going that way. The only way out is through!
Read moreSearching For
Searching for another goal that will fill this hole, I feel that I need to find myself again as I lost myself when I lost you.
Read moreFour things you can do for your colleague who is childless not by choice
Are you a working parent? Understandably, you probably didn’t know that this is World Childless Week…
Read moreChutes and Ladders
Twixt chutes and ladders
Read moreWhen not having children is a trauma: Moving forward by addressing the burdens of our past
Most of those who have never lived through infertility do not realize that not being able to conceive is not “just” about not having a baby—as utterly heartbreaking as that is. It is a cataclysm in one’s entire life.
Read moreFinding New Dreams on the Ice
In August 2021, my husband and I received a voicemail from our fertility clinic, saying that we had a medical condition that would make conception challenging.
Read moreThe Path of the Priestess Scar
Hello my wild roses! My intention for this story is to share with you some of what I have learned on healing the wounds that can come with being an expansive, soulful human with dreams that don’t always come to fruition in the ways I envisioned.
Read moreOpening Doors
I never imagined being where I am today. I never imagined the estrangement from the traditional world would be so great, and I never expected the coldness and hardness I experienced by being different.
Read moreSign Post Along My Journey
My grief journey began innocently enough. Someone else posted a pregnancy portrait session they were really proud of.
Read morePassage of Time
Childless. Through The Years.
If I were to write this then.
It would be full of sorrow, hurt, fear, regret, shock, confusion, longing, heartache, anger, blame, low self worth, trepidation, isolation
Read moreWays to move through childless grief
I always wanted to be a Mum. When I knew for definite that it would not be possible, all my carefully made plans, my dreams, my hope for my future, all crashed and burned and I felt as if I was left with nothing.
Read moreThe Freerunners
We are the freerunners. We cross the liminal spaces between one generation and the next. We encounter many obstacleson the path through life, but we use our pain, resilience and creativity to overcome them.
Read moreLetters to you little one
I thought about starting to write to the child I didn’t have.
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