Being single and without children at nearly 50 was decidedly NOT part of the careful path I had laid out for my life when finishing college.
Read moreReflections from taking a Sabbatical
We cannot direct the wind, but we can adjust the sails. In 2014 my husband and I made a life changing decision and moved from the UK to Sydney leaving family, friends and all of our comforts behind.
Read moreChildless Christmas
No sugar-plums dancing, no Dad in his cap,
No Momma in kerchief, no reindeer feet taps.
When we first lost you
Being 60
I never thought I would reach 60. When I was a child my mum read my hand and said my lifeline was short and I would die young.
Read moreBitter Old Maid
I’ve become a bitter old maid. I didn’t want it to happen, but here it is.
Read moreMy Hidden Mother Identity
Sometimes something that you live with day in and day out, alarmingly stares you in the face and kind of shakes your core.
Read moreThe Dining Room
It is the main earthly business of a human being to make his home, and the immediate surroundings of his home, as symbolic and significant to his own imagination as he can.
Read moreTaking steps to freedom
I'm not walking alone anymore.
Read moreSmall Joys
There are many little pockets of happiness in my life. I find joy in small things, and I intend to keep finding them.
Read moreAt Iguazu Falls
One year after ending our fertility journey, I found myself standing in front of the Iguazu Falls. Their raw, overwhelming power felt similar to my childlessness grief.
Read moreWho am I?
Who am I if I can’t be a mother?
Read moreHow Self-Acceptance Accelerates My Healing
The moment I understood that my life was always going to turn out this way, my healing could truly begin.
Read moreA pair of dark sunglasses is my current state of vision
Life takes you by surprise. The year of 2018 pulled the rug under my feet to expose an unknown void or cavity
Read moreSunflower Joy
I recently went on holiday to New York, and amidst the pictures of skyscrapers, fire-escapes, Central Park and the food, I took this picture.
Read moreThe Part of my Story influenced my ex-Mother-in-Law
I am writing this letter 17 years later to get my feelings finally out.
Read moreRandom Ways I Flourish
I prioritize movement, colour, comfort, rest and writing.
I seek out warm, engaging people.
Read moreSomeone Different
Rising
She had spent so long wandering around in the bottom of the abyss. A deep and so very dark abyss.
Read moreRewriting My Story
My childless story isn’t a tidy one with a clear beginning, middle, and end. It’s ever-changing, filled with revisions.
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