I was in my late twenties when a gynaecologist told me for the first time that I had to hurry if I wanted to be a mother.
Read moreWho am I if I’m not a Mum?
Why do we question our meaning and purpose if we have not been able to reproduce?
Read moreBefore You Swipe Left
I am childless.
Before you swipe right because you assume this is another
story of trying to conceive, failed IVF and infertility,
please stay with me a while and hear some of my story.
Read moreCan you Make a Mistake and Miss your Fate?
In an episode of “Sex and the City” from the early 2000s, Carrie Bradshaw wonders whether you can “make a mistake and miss your fate”. .
Read moreOne. Four. Three. Stop.
Using paper, thread, paint, and the landscape of dance, Victoria Robinson's installation of 143 life size suspended paper dresses holds softly the power of repetitious grief experience and the power to consciously stop.
Read moreTo Flourish
I want to flourish as much as I am able
I want to want things such as to travel
I want to feel ok to be me
Even without child
Loss, Grief, Transformation - a song cycle
This is a story of a specific loss: the loss of an unborn child, and the resulting loss of the dream of bearing children.
Read morePregiudizi E Giudizi: Stop! (Prejudices and judgement: Enough!)
Vivere a Roma e non avere figli ha significato solitudine.
Living in Rome and not having children means loneliness.
Read moreReviewing this Aspect of My Life.
I am 67 now, I made these screen-prints over the last 5 years of the 10 year period that we were trying to conceive, 1992-1997.
Read moreIf You’re going through Hell, Keep Going
It was coming up to midnight when the men woke us up and asked us, two solo ladies in their early-thirties, what we were doing camping near the Iranian border in Azerbaijan. Umm, trying to sleep?
Read moreI've Met You
I wrote a song just about childlessness after stopping treatment a few years ago and finally put it on you tube this year.
Read moreWhat if it were true?
What if it were true?
What if those comments, so painful to my ears, were actually true?
What if the greatest love is the love of your child?
Read moreUnconceived
An unintentional drawing exercise to try to invite creativity back into my life unexpectedly brought to paper a reality I am hiding inside.
Read moreFinding the New Me
Perhaps my story is like so many others’ out there, and yet it is still painful to tell.
Read moreReshaping the Narrative
‘Write for World Childless Week’, I told myself this year, setting the goal weeks in advance.‘
Read moreWhy I Choose to Call Myself Childless
“Don’t call yourself childless,” someone said to me last year. “That’s so disempowering. You’re childfree.” While I appreciated the intention behind the suggestion, I am not interested in calling myself “childfree.” I’m not childfree. I’m childless.
Read moreGrowing Poetry
Another white delivery van pulls up outside…
Read moreThe Greatest Pain of All
I have had depression and anxiety since I was a child. At 19 years of age, when I was a sophomore in college, I got fibromyalgia, with which I was diagnosed at age 24.
Read moreMy Love
They say a picture is worth a thousand words…
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