Instead of

avoiding,

hiding,

dreading what makesmy life unfullfilled,

challenge it,

find the alternative.

I now know

I am a Mom to Sternenkinder/Star Children

with names

Instead of complaining

I can never have children,

will never be a mom,

sad for what I do not have.

I realised this year:

What I have

What I still have

The World is set up to convince you to focus on the negatives

the not haves

your losses

your never to haves

... say no

... be what you believe you are

Next challenge

cannot bare not being a grandma

Why?

... I let the world make me think this

But then I searched after years of coming to terms with my destiny.

Now I am happy

Why?

I honour my children in heaven

... and only with

Self therapy,

Self realisation

... have I become open and thriving to be a grandma to a family with two children and a dog

Yes I am Childless

Yes I have children

Yes I have grandchildren

No the mom is not my nor my husband‘s daughter

No the father is not my nor my husband’s son

No my children are not the parent to my grandchildren

Yes, they are my grandchildren

Yes, they are my children

Yes, I am Childless