Last Christmas I was sat home alone, aged 43 with my cat and pondered on my life so far and how most of my friends are now mothers or mothers to be.
Read moreA Sense Of Excitement
During the deepest years of my grieving, I felt frozen.
Read moreHelen's Story
An old school friend got in touch and asked if I'd like to be interviewed for one of her 'random dialogues'. She said I could talk about literally anything I wanted and I realised that I felt okay enough to talk about CNBC.
Read moreHow have you ‘used’ your grief?
Some time ago the weekly magazine of an Italian newspaper—in an issue entitled “Suspended Mothers”—invited its female readers to write and tell the story of how they ‘used’ their ‘share of grief’ for not being able to conceive.
Read moreE tu come hai ‘usato’ il tuo dolore?
Qualche tempo fa il settimanale di un quotidiano italiano - in un'edizione dedicata alle madri 'in sospeso' - invitava le proprie lettrici a scrivere e raccontare come avessero 'usato' le loro 'dosi di dolore' per non essere riuscite a concepire.
Read moreWild Egg
Six years ago, age 43, I had a miscarriage.
It was the culmination of a fourteen-month journey that began on my mother’s 65th birthday, when my husband unexpectedly declared he wanted a baby.
Read morePlan B Reformed
My plan B is to live a contented and meaningful life as a childless not by choice person. To find new meaning in the space left by childlessness.
Read moreDetermined To Heal
I’m 37, married, and childless not by choice. I don’t exactly fit the mold of your typical “infertility story”. I can’t have children, but not because of my reproductive organs. I’m childless by circumstances.
Read moreBreaking The Silence Of Shame
We are all in various stages of acceptance in our childless lives – from thriving, comfort, and acceptance, to grief, anger, loss, and sadness.
Read moreThe Moving Forwards Adventure
In 2017, when I was still in childless denial, I started to train as a life coach. It was intended to be useful in my career as a teacher and a possible future alternative to teaching.
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