I struggle with knowing what God’s will is for me. How much of my childlessness is due to chance? Circumstance? Or was this His plan for me all along?
I went to a church talk a couple years ago and afterwards purchased a card on it with a quote from Saint Therese of Lisieux:
God would not inspire unattainable desires.
If that’s true, then how did I end up single and childless? It has always been the desire of my heart to be married and to be a mother. Does that mean it is my fault - rather than God’s will - that I didn’t get those things?
A friend recently told me that maybe God wants me to pour my heart into volunteering, or being an aunt, or being a stepmom. But I desire none of those.
God would not inspire unattainable desires.
I am often told, “Pray more. Don’t lose hope!” But I have learned that some prayers aren’t answered, and I don’t know why.
God would not inspire unattainable desires.
At church, the priest always refers to one’s spouse and kids, and how to walk in faith with God and one’s family. What about me? How do I walk in faith with God and just myself? Why don’t I see any single and childless people my age in the pews? Could it be because we are invisible there? How I wish to feel a place for me in God’s house.
God would not inspire unattainable desires.
Father God, I desire a loving, Christ-centered husband and children. If this is not Your will, please lead me to what Your will is for me. Amen.
God would not inspire unattainable desires.
Anonymous
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